pictures! not from serene's bday! LOL *update!

took this centuries ago

strawberrryyyy

max brennerrrrr

nice hair and lipgloss

messy hair! lol

tadahhh~~~~

dreams

i had a weird dream last night...

I dreamt that I missed a flight to Dubai by 2 minutes... and since I missed that flight, my mom went without me.. Yes.. I was going to Dubai with my mom.. how weird is that? city of shopping... with MY MOM? anyways.. DUBAI?!?!!? why on earth would I go to Dubai?! sure.. it's a shopaholic's paradise.. but.. that was really random I thought....

So, what did I do after I got up, I googled Dubai, to see whats special there.. yeah sure there were the cultural aspects of tourism.. but it was really the shopping that interested me... Now I find myself wanting to go to Dubai even more.. and it seems so impossible, because I'm going home this summer... and in December.. if things go according to plan, I will be going to New Zealand... and if my wallet permits, Australia...

while we're on the topic of dreams, I had yet another weird dream 3 weeks ago. I think it was during the peak of my *ahem* horniness.

I dreamt that Guy A (he who shall not be named), gave me a ring.. told me I was a real confusing girl, and fucked my brains out.. and I liked it..

I woke up after that, thinking DAYMN!!!!! why did I wake again? I tried to channel back into that dream, but I couldn't.. so the frustrated me (literally and figuratively frustrated) went to school.

on another level of dreams.. I'm pretty sure those who didn't take A levels or a year learning Japanese, are going to graduate soon. And probably looking for jobs soon. I, on the other hand, have two more years.. and then I'll be in the workforce, if I don't intend to continue. I don't know what I want to do in the future.. a part of me wants to continue like this forever.. studying, messing about and having fun. I don't intend to live in Japan.. it's dull and hard for a desperate-single-horny girl like me.. so I'm considering going to South America to teach English. HOW'S THAT FOR A DREAM????? awesome no? the beautiful culture, beautiful lifestyle, beautiful people... it's cheap.. WHY NOT?!! what do you think? (it definitely goes with my appetite for Latinos) and then once I'm done with traveling, further my education in the UK? and then travel at the same time?

yawning out...

random pics again! lol

lol that's my mum's ancient sweater!

kare fried rice! just experimenting and it actually turned out yummy!

stir fry cabbage and fry minced meat & potato with soya sauce

ee laine! my uni mate lol

eating biscuit!

promoting snack bar -_-

yes..biscuit in her pie hole

sushi roll

lynette.. another one of my mum's ancient sweater which is BIG ..i look like an elephant there

HAHA force her to take pic when she still has food in her mouth.. sorry for my retarded face

SHOES

my fav pair of shoes! aud129.90 with 20% discount

for everyday use although they're stupidly uncomfortable.. aud99

overused loafers.. i dont wear them anymore! coz the soles are dying hopefully i can get them fixed! my fav! rm169+-

cute! um..aud20? LOL

boots! slightly higher than ankle.. aud159.90

converse! rm 129+

birki! rm369

i love this flats but i bought the wrong size so i gave them to serene.. aud60++

i feel broken...

As I was going down the stairs from Uni today, I slipped and broke my high heels... My friends were all rushing at me with the "daijyoubu desu ka?" and all I could think of was... "MY SHOES!! MY SHOES!!" Currently, I'm sitting in my room thinking... what should I do... I skipped class because I was too frantic about the situation. I want to go to town to find a repair shop. I just researched about do-it-yourself repairing heels. I've learnt that super glue is not enough. You need shoe glue and shoe nails. Before today, I have never heard of such a thing as.. "Shoe Goo". But it seems to exist and now is a good time as ever to call for goo.

Fortunately for me I was carrying my gym shoes in my rucksack. So I changed from my 3.5 inch (9cm) high heels to my Nike sport shoes.. And boy what a difference it makes. I know that high heels are not good for the feet. I've heard of theories that wearing high-heels endanger life.. something about shortening the life-span? I don't know if the theory is sound of not but.. I would never give up my heels.

I have got friends who has never owned and still haven't got a pair of heels. And are still not interested in heels. I don't know when I started wearing heels and how I got used to the idea of heels.. But what I do know is.. I simply cannot go on without heels. As you might have guessed already, I go to school in outrageous outfits. I don't go to school in a t-shirt and a pair of jeans. No, wait.. there are days which I am lazy and rushing to school... SO that would be a lie. MOST OF THE TIME, I dress up to school. I wear clothes fit for a party, an outing in Tokyo, a club-worthy outfit; fully equipped with make-up, accessories, and high heels.

They say that "clothes maketh the man". And so it does! I don't think its a good thing, but hey it's me. I felt very different when I was wearing my sport shoes. Sure, they are Nike. But who cares?! I don't like being on the level. I want to feel up-lifted, elevated and glamorous. High heels make me feel whole. On the days where I don't dress up for Uni, I literally feel like SHIT. When I was trolloping about in campus with my heels, I felt like a somebody. When I fell, normal people would be embarrassed (I caught myself on time.. I didn't fall on my face or anything.. just that the shoe broke) so yeah - normally people would be embarrassed.. but no, I still felt proud... It was only when I put on the sport shoes, I felt humbled and like a nobody. To me, it was equivalent to a rich snobby person suddenly losing it all. I'm a nobody. Don't look at me, I;m wearing my sport shoes, I'm short, I'm ugly.

I wonder if anybody out there feels the same like me? I don't like how I am unable to feel sexy in flats. It's SO inconvenient. Take for example, when you are in a foreign country, you go to the shopping district, the wisest thing to do is to wear your most comfortable shoes so that you can shop till you drop no? But whilst shopping, one must also dress the part so that the sales people can treat you nicely no? To do that, I need my shoes. I need heels to bring on the "Look at me, I'm beautiful, rich and important - show me your goods" aura.

I am utterly depressed now. I feel so very broken. I'm silently hoping that there's a repair shop in town that is able to treat my baby. I need those shoes. I shall go out to repair now. Whilst doing that, it doesn't hurt to look at other heels... *laughs*

ughhhhh

it seems like golden week continued for me... lols

im soooo tired... on top of that i got sick.. this sucks...

what i meant by golden week continued for me is that.. the parties never seem to stop.. and i keep having fun and my body seems to be saying "STOP IT" or else!

im too lazy to give a detailed summary of what happened but here goes.. Friday night, went to a TISA party, welcoming the new foreigners.. i didnt want to go because i knew it was going to SUCK ASS.. and it did! but i went anyways to entertain my friends who wanted to go.. and then after that we headed to the bar, where everybody else was at.. EVERYBODY WAS THERE... the whole bar was packed with ALMOST ALL the foreigners.. and they were drunk and crazy... there was an ALMOST strip tease, boob grabbing and girls making out... i was sober that night... i was rather ticked off by the fact that people were fondling me in an amused and rather besotted way... *rolls eyes*

Saturday night, it was supposed to be a random day with me chilling in my room.. (I cancelled going to Yokohama that day because I was tired... hence the well needed rest...) BUT majo came over and we had a girly talk.. and then we got hollered to a poker/drinking game.. and I got drunk... I had a little somethin' somethin' going on in the rain... and then left for the bar.. already drunk.. and then in the bar, more drunk girls making out, drunk boys passing out, i got bored i went home...

Sunday... 7am, head wanted to explode... 9am, it was gone, it was as if i DID have my well-needed rest... and then I headed over to Tsukuba center because we were supposed to go to Chiba - to louise's house warming party... and at Tsukuba center, they were having an International Bazaar. it was fun! i bought so much peanuts.... Got a bit delayed due to the train system.. got to louise's had food, had fun, alcohol (but no drunken-ness).. told them the story of my debauchery and they lectured me about my behaviour.. that maybe I should hide my boobs so that i dont attract such "unwanted" attention... *lols*

i got depressed halfway because if guys dig me.. they think im hot and shit.. why the FUCK am I single!?!? i think i have a nice personality... I can cook, I'm pretty horny, if you peeps dig the "yellow fever thing", heck --- I'm Asian, I speak English... I have a pretty decent rack, and ass.. wtf is wrong!??! but then my friends tell me that i aim too high.. and i say it's only because I'm worth it.. sigh.... why are all the men around me assholes, homosexuals, taken, or just ugly?

anyways.. i was having a web-convo with my mum and she stared at me and asked "Did your lips get bigger?" and I'm like "wha~?! nooo man... they're the same... and pretty chapped right now.. cos I'm sick" She gives me this disgusted look and tells me "They're so indecent... you should try to make them smaller..."

My reaction,". . ."

yellow fever

right.. i found this video online.. i was surfing on facebook and then i saw a group which said "japanese girls are superior" - a group of pansie boys slurping over japanese porn stars, japanese models.. how they are cute, hot, smart.. I'm like what the~?! Japanese women smart!?! there are those out there.. but seriously?!

but i wont condemn Japanese women about their intellegence.. but yeah... man... and then that lead to another group on facebook called "Asian women are the sexiest, hottest most seductive women on earth" not just oriental asians.. but middle east asians, south east asians.. ASIAN in general... but i went through 313 pictures of women there.. and there were more Chinese/Korean/Japanese women than anything else... i was annoyed... MAJORLY annoyed.. whats with the hype about asian women? This must be weird coming from an asian herself (really... it should be good news for me..) but seriously?! SERIOUSLY!!!

ughhh... so disgusted.. anyhoos... I then found this video on youtube..."yellow fever"





I laughed my butt off.. but yeah kinda sad how true it all is... I'm not being hypocritical and stuff.. I'm attracted to white guys.. but I don't understand how white guys just zone in on Asian girls... I mean white girls are pretty too..

eitherways... for my practice thesis paper.. I'm going to write about Japan's sexual culture... im going to deal with Japanese pornography and their attitudes with sex... how awesome is that? I might need some feedback from the lads who follow my blog.. so please drop a tag if interested in answering some questions...

chao~

As promised

I have to admit, I have neglected this site cos I blog here as well. But its mostly ranting and random short entries which I feel are not fun to stick into a group blog. But yes, APLC has made a good point about it being about the 5 of us. So I shall post pictures from this year(I would post from last year but I burnt out all those photos from my computer already) Here goes:

Kiwi's 21st Birthday in the park
This park is sadly enough the park outside where we have our exams. I dont think you can see the exam building in any of my photos. Its the giant white building. Boo exams~






Easter Conference 08'
Not putting up many of these. Alot of them have kids and their parents in it. Not quite sure how they'd feel about someone posting their pictures up for all the world (maybe not all the world, but still out there) to see.






Ade C's 21st
I dint take too many photos though. Her friend has a cool kick ass camera and she did most of the photo taking. Hmm. I now wish I had taken more. I dint even get to take pictures with Rachel and Jerica. Oh and pictures from Rachel's birthday are in my friends SD card-long story. So I haven't been able to post those.




Anzac day picnic in the park
Hehe. It was fun as. We have alot of new youths coming into church and this was the perfect event to get everyone mingling and having a few laughs together. We prayed the weather would hold off its rain and it did. Praise God!- It only rained AFTER we left the park.









Hehe. Much love. I will try to post more during winter break.

kickass weekend!

Wednesday night, Dora a friend hollering from all the way in Hokkaido, came to visit us in Tokyo.. she came to Tsukuba and along with her, Louise and Casey came to surprise visit! and that just means more drinking parties!! So, an impromptu party was needed... i bought white wine, i had red wine, i bought vodka, tequila, a pack of smirnoff ice, I had rum in my fridge.. and also champagne... John said I was definitely NOT a CUTE girl... I had more alcohol in my place than two boys combined together..

we drank everything up except for the vodka and rum.. and the champagne.. (is mine!!! special occasions only!) apparently i was the only vodka shot person in the house... BORING!!! and because i didnt have decent cups, we drank from my tea-cups! hahahaha it was funny... we ended up tipsy, but not drunk... how did that happen!?!? i dont understand... like... we drank a LOT!!! i mixed... everything!!! it was the dangerous-sure-to-get-you-drunk way!!! damn.. all i got was a bloody headache... sure i was tipsy.. but i wasnt HIGH (hehehehahhahehiehaihh HIGH) no... damn.. i'll tell you how i drank... tequila shots, vodka shots, red wine, white wine, mixed drinks... finished whatever my friends couldnt finish.. jesus.. my liver is working too hard...

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i finally got some well deserved clubbing!! it has been too long!!! and damnnnn i didnt get drunk nor high at all! so boring! I spent sooo much money on drinks, i might as well not drink and just go dancing.. save a lot of money too like...

first we met up at Shibuya's Starbucks... and then Louise and Siti parted.. so we left for TGI Friday's.. only Ruo Lin and I had meals because we hadnt eaten yet... cocktails too of course... after that, we left Shibuya..

cocktail #1: Pina Colada





we went to Shinjuku's Ni chou me （新宿二丁目）the gay district.. *insert the gay bar song here*"YOU! I WANNA TAKE YOU TO A GAY BAR! GAY BAR GAY BAR!!!!LET'S START A NUCLEAR WAR" it was my first time so i was estastic... we only went to one gay bar.. but passed a few... we went to Arty Farty... GOD DAMN~~~ voyeur heaven! Ive never been teased so much in my whole life... guys making out is sooo hot.. ahahah and it's true what they say about the music is better.. Pop Remixes...

cocktail #2: GodFather
cocktail #3: White Russian

*disco ball! dancing pole!*

after that, we decided that the straights weren't getting any attention.. (being me) we had to move on to a heterosexual based place... ahahhaa so on to Roppongi （六本木)...

First few minutes after walking from the station.. we were asked to try this bar/club... they played mostly Hip Hop.. and the place was interesting enough... but naaahh.....

cocktail #4: Long Island Iced Tea

A spit away from the previous bar, we went to another bar.. a Shisha bar... that was CRAZY FUN!!! the music was varied so a whole lot of us had tons of fun!

cocktail #5: Tequila Shot
*two rounds of Apple/Mint shisha*
i want to shisha again!!!!!






After that.. we left that bar, we walked for some while, because we expected the bouncers to invite us in to more bars.. but nothing happened.. we were too busy pretending to be Chinese ladies offering sleazy massages... "Special massage for ten dolla.. yuu gib me twenty i do more... sucky sucky ten dolla" AAHAHAHAH and then the guys thought it would be cool if there were reversed prostitutions.. like they pay the receiver to have sex with them... crazy no?

so we went to a bar called "The First Bar" and we had fun there! we met sooo many freaky people there! Dora was trying to teach a few salarymen how to boogie.. ahhahaha they were shy and all stiff but Dora was all over them in a while..

ahaha we went out for a while.. to find another bar/club.. but it was raining and there werent much near by that peeked our interest.. and so we went back there..... and then there was the funky chinese ladies who were dancing with us.. i swear! they dance like sexy-ass hos.. i respect them... they know what they are doing... so sexay...

and then there were the couple who sat beside us.. married-divorced-will marry again sort of S&M couple... haha they are in an abusive relationship, but they like it.. they were climbing on top of each other trying to control each other.. they husband wanted to buy us drinks... but the wife was like "you're drunk... waiter don't listen to him" and the husband was like "i'm going to marry this woman!!! waiter give these people over here a shot each on me!!!" so we shyly... a bit scaredly drank the shots...

cocktail #6: GodFather
cocktail #7: Corona (beer though)
cocktail #8: Free shot (i dont even know what it was...)

i got back in tsukuba at 630 ish.. and then slept at 8 after a well needed shower... now im going to have to prepare for another dance party! woots! tonight tonight tonight! i was invited to another event on Sunday, but i think my feet would hate me after that... so.. eheheh


*ps* i know there is a total lack of pictures here... but.. like.. my camera died halfway... I need to extract loads of other pictures from other peeps..

So keep a look out for this post.. because I will put more photos..