just to add on adeline's confusness

yeah! i also get that confusion thing going on too coz like you adeline i cant speak chinese for shit..... i mean i speak and she eng just laughs, rolls her eyes and in turn i roll my eyes.

so when people ask me where i'm from it varies from time to time like:

Australian Angmo who i dun know: oh i'm from Brunei
their reply: Where is that?
does that mean that you are rich?
isnt that in Africa?
Australian Angmo who wants to know more: i'm from Brunei but i'm Chinese
their reaction: ?!?!?!?!?! but how?! you are from brunei? shouldnt you be Bruneian?!
my reaction: . . . ( no comments

Australia Angmo who has passed ignorant stage: ok i'm Actually Born in Malaysia,
Grew up in Brunei, Lived in Melbourne
for 3 yrs, am of chinese descent but
first language is english coz we were
colonised by the British...
their reaction: OHHHHhhhhh, kinda confused huh? well i'm just Australian
my reaction:!#$%#$^$%&.... hiya! doesnt matter!

yeah thats basically it, then they will ask why do i have have an accent??? and like why my english is so good and Shocked! yes people Shocked that i did not grew up in Australia???? teng teng teng

what can i say? FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL FAIL

hiya even worse when i have kids lah, going to be so mixed up? i'll scratch my head later for that...


Love,
A Malaysian Chinese Serene who grew up in Brunei but currently living in Melbourne,there is no land for a specific identity

oh the ramblings of aplc

my friends think im a culturally/racially confused little girl..

as you all might already know.. imma sayin' it loud and proud BANANA! blame it on globalism and what not, I speak english like it's my first language.. no... what am i saying!? IT IS MY FIRST LANGUAGE!

I'm all offended when peeps point out how asian i am... ugh.. im no chinese.. probably because i generalise things too much... when i think of the chinese ethnic group i either think of the lalas from chunghwa, or the bad stereotypes of China... VERY BAD OF ME... maybe because i never could speak chinese, thus i was always exempted from the "cina" group.. so its me feeling anger and rejection from them... oh the bitterness...

and maybe because i can't fit in the "chio" of the "kawaii" group, i feel repulsed from it... i cant be cute... sexay's more ma thing~ you feeling me!?

and then theres all these whitening products which i constantly buy because of this asian mindset of white/fair skin is good, dark skin look like worker.. blablabla... i still use them.. and my angmo friends think im crazy, cos they love my mulatto skin colour apparently... i dunno.. I just feel that if i were fairer, I could pull off hot red lipstick looks like gwen stefani .... AWESOME-O!!!!

and then theres this side of me who wants to speak ebonics (like a black girl) and wants a bigger butt so that i can pump and grind in clubs like-no-otha'! (OH YEAH BITCHES GOT IT GOIN' ON!!!) i absolutely love black attitude! soo pazzazz!

yeah they concluded that I'm an asian who wants to be a white and black at the same time.. im sooo confused..

ive known of this for some time now.. and i was jarred back into this memory just now, because i was checking out my booty.. and realising.. THIS BABY AINT GOT NO BACK!!! for real yo~ shitzzzzzzzzzzz i need more butt... like.. LIST ME THEM FOODS THAT YO MOMMA TELL YOU TO NEVER EAT COZ IT GOIN STRAIGHT TO YO ASS!!!! imma eat them stuffies NOW!!!

im telling you! i need mo ass!

and what's worse! sasa just told me sitting down a lot worsens it! ugh! what am i to do? i read and surf the internet a lot.. IM DOOMED TO A FLAT ASS!!! shit! what do i do!?!!?

like this sexay thing up here!!!

HOT DAYUM!!!!! fresh buns from the bakery! damn.. if i was a guy, id be tempted to stick my wanger in there! shit.. GOD DAMN!

Shopping damage from DFO Essendon!

RL tote for 79!

RL 100%silk dress!super bargain from 299 to 69!

another RL dress for 69! this is nothing wow but I bought it for summer? and it's branded! lol

Some OZ brand ,SABA, 100% silk dress for 75+- from 199 i think?

nine west heels for 49! damn cheap!

I also bought a pair of FCUK black shorts for 60 but it's nothing wow also.... I like the length and the fit although they're not cheap~ I have been spending a lot of money lately.. on shopping and eating good food! behtahan ler... I have a high chance of going back to Brunei for good..so enjoy while I still can! righhhttt?

oh yea! had a super fun party last night at home with johnson(duh) serene,william, lynette and her housemate! got really drunk ler! so terrible but luckily didn't vomit! I don't have any pics from the party, they're all with johnson and mostly are videos anyway! damn embarassing lor i tell u the videos... so paiseh to watch them.... really teruk! johnson has gone back liao! so im alone at home until family comes over next week... they're damn funny ok.. take like super jialat routes to come here coz there are no seats on singapore airlines.. fly from miri to jb via airasia then to singapore by bus i assume then to melbourne via..... i dunno qantas most probably~ and this means that i wont be going back with them together! HOW GAYYYYYYYYYY =( i will have to fly back alone via singapore airlines! boohoohoo! it's ok i LOVE their inflight entertainment anyway and T3=SHOPPING.. LOL provided i have money... since i dont have 'atm machines' coming along with me! =(

bah..enough crappppiiinnngggggg

p/s: i miss my baby! lol

SHOPPING SPREE!

ookay... i wanna show you guys the stuff i just got... they're like SOOOOOOOOOOOOO ADORABLE!!! i love love love love them~


warning: youll have to excuse the lack of makeup... like.. i was already late for the shopping outing... i didnt have the time to put on makeup.. i felt sooo ugly walking around in the mall today.. like seriously.. i decided to go with a sexy outfit... the corset combo.. and then i was putting on my contacts, when my friend was already outside my apartment in the car.. and im like.. SHIT! i have a sexy outfit on.. and my face is clean of makeup.. HOW FUCKING WEIRD WAS THAT?!!?! like... for a split second.. i wanted to change to uglier clothes... i know i have serious issues...

oh.. and warning 2: excuse the excess of flab... i know i have put on a bit of kgs lately.... i swear! TOMORROW! im going to sign up for the gym!!!!!! MOTHEFUCK! im going to sexy thin!!! clothes WILL fit!

i know i have serious issues...

anyways... on to the PURRRCHASESS~~~~~~~~~~~

numero uno:

a hoodie/muffler! ive always wanted one!! kinda popular in japan... perhaps they'll look cuter on japanese chicks.. cos they're tinier... and im huge.. but nyah... i like it...

oh! the ends have pockets!!! KAWAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII


numero dos:
a black and white stripy long sleeved top... sooo pretty... once again.. i see gut in myself.. but FUCK IT! and some beads... since its going to be all wintery now... black and white it is then! all i need now is a red berret, and ill be oh so french!

numero tres:
another black and white funky top/one piece... this one was supposed to be a one piece.. but i was too lazy to put on some stockings... so.. yeah! it looks fine as a top too! albeit non-figure flattering but whatever works with a gut works for me!

numero quatro:

HOT SHORTS!!! ive always wanted them!!! i get sooo envious of girls who wear them! they look SOOOO cute! okay mine arent extremely short.. but hey! its freakkin' winter up here! and of course ill have to wear stockings with these.. clearly.. HAHAHA but yeay! a pair of "hot" shorts.... FINALMENTE!

you wish you could tap that ass don't you? *wink* LOL

i wanted to buy more stuff... like... i wanted to buy this jacket... but my friends were all tired... so they were waiting for me at starbucks.. so i went to the store alone.. and i was confused... to get it or not to get it... ughh.. and it was sooo expensive.. but i really liked the model... or at least i thought i did... i went to the store a loong time ago... but i didnt buy the jacket i wanted on the spot because i was thinking "too expensive lah" maybe i can find a some what same but cheaper version? but i never did.. like maybe starting from that store was a mistake.. cos... nothing i saw ever measured up to THAT jacket! sooo tragic! HAHA

and then i wanted to buy a pair of boots today too! like i want furry shoes! but! i have this usual drama with shoes without heels... there were SOOOOOOOO many shoes that were cute... but.. they were flat... so im like.. nyeh... no heel no talk! HAHA i saw one pair which where nice... but it was the last pair..in a size M! UGHHHHHHHHHHHHh

what horrid luck... but i did buy some stuff.. so im happy... dunno about the wallet tho.. HAHA

*EDIT*
I totally forgot about my rather exp and "alice in wonderland" themed bling bling!

numero sinco

chio or not?