in lala land! lol

im HAPPYYY! lol

i went to this M-PLAN leadership training in miri from 24-26th nov... it's like a talk on how to become a more successful person.. bla bla those kinda things..... sze shih's dad actually asked my dad to go... but he was busy or what.. so i went instead.. its only BND200, including food and hotel

at first i thought my cousin would come with me but noo.. sigh~ then sze shih said she will only be coming on the 25th so i was like totally alone.... then went to miri, sze shih's dad drove la of course plus 2 other person, 1 uncle and 1 auntie 38 yrs old but she looks young and she's really nice.. and we share the hotel room, we stayed in imperial, the rooms are like apartment like that with kitchen and a living room.. 3 rooms and we stayed in the twin one plus 2 master room stayed by other people..... married ones..

so.. the 1st day.. the class is in one of those function rooms in imperial, so then the talk started with the malaysia's national anthem which was played suddenly.. and about 40 of us were like blur blur.. whether to stand or not to stand.... then eventually we all stood up like 5 secs later... then the song finished.. the lecturer scolded us like crap which was LOL... baru started already kena scolded... lol they did it on purpose anyway... the lecturer damn funny la.. he's the only one whom i can listen and concentrate on.... he's got really funny expression.... there were 3 lecturer, 2 male 1 female, the other male lecturer was boring, i was practically dozing off when he's talking... and the female one.. um... she didn't talk much.. only had 2 lessons with her... which i think was ok la... the 1st day.. nothing much la.. just listen to the talks, finished about 11 like that.. then went back to hotel room, showered and slept...

the 2nd day.... woke up at 6:30, showered, make up, curl hair finished around 7:30 like that breakfast time is 8 lol woke up early just incase i got not enough time then around 8 like that the people in my apartment went to book the seats in the class 1st LOL so we can get nice angle... then we went for breakfast.. went to the class at 9 like that...... the table was for 3 people, i was sitting in the middle and the young auntie was sitting at the right side so nobody was sitting at the left.. then there's this guy(LOL) he was looking for a seat but most of them were occupied so he sat down beside me la... hmm.. he's normal looking but i guess he's only can-see one among the whole group, the others were mostly married uncles, or nerdy(LOL) looking...... both of us were talking a bit la.. like where we're from and stuffs like that.... and then the talk reached 1 part where the lecturer was talking about how difficult is it to be pregnant and how our parents took care of us bla bla like that... must respect parents and stuffs like that... we had to close our eyes, the lights were all switched off...then the lecturer keep on talking...... and guess what? the 2 persons on my sides both cried... lol i was kinda dreaming when i was closing my eyes... then we were each given candles... we lit them up and had to hold hands with people by your side and i got to hold his hands OMG! he reached out his hand so i put mine on top of it! wahhhhh... my heart wanted to pop out like that...... we hold hands for like erm.... 5 mins or more.. my gawd... my first time holding a guy's hand for that long(lol pathetic eh?) i held his hand quite hard though i think? cos he was crying... and i dont know what to do... i sorta move my middle finger like caressing like that but a bit nia la... then he did it back? lol i dont know whether it was on purpose or what... but wah lao... my heart wanted to pop out evenmore and i was screaming inside 'kyaaaaaaaaaaaa'.... and all the time he was sitting beside me... i had butterflies in my stomach...... lol maybe i think too much? sigh i also dont know la...

then the next day, he sat beside me again, then once again the lights were switched off i forgot when? then we were to shake hands or hug telling each other something which i dont remember... we shook hands for like um... 5 seconds looking at each other like waiting for each other to do something like that, actually i wanted to hug him.. gah! i regretted for not doing.... then we let go and shook hands with other people.... then in between, we got to hold hands again... during singing and stuffs like that... oh yea.. during lunch.. i was sitting beside him.... and he got food for me... my gawdd.. soooo nice and i didnt even ask for it.... he just gave me like that.... so yasashi.....made me like(eh? so fast lol) him even more... then the last class eventually finished like 8pm?, we took group pics.. got our certs, and i got to take a pic with him... LUCKY if not i will regret for the rest of my life(lol lol lol lol) then we shook hands again... i was like squeezing( i was being flirty all the time LOL to the max) his hand rather than shaking lol he was like saying 'need so hard meh?' lol.. oh and we exchanged our contacts plus email as well... LOL with all the other people as well la.. not only him.... i wanted to see him before i go actually... he was in the toilet changing.. keep on waiting and waiting.. my uncle was doing something and i was praying that he would do it slowly..... then gah.. my uncle came and had to go back... and i didnt even get to see him... *cries*.. so boh pian la.. then 2 hrs later back in brunei sighhh~~ i was soooooo depressed and cried my ass off(lol)

then i emailed him the pic we took together...... and guess what jiang jiang jiang!!!!! he called just now!!!!! at about 8 like that !!!!!!!!!!! KITAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA... he actually called last night as well.. but my dad answered the phone so he hung up straight away! muahahaha.... then he called again just now.. i answered.. then i was thinking is it him, is it him.. and its really him!!!!! uwaaaaaaa.... we didnt talk much, he asked whether i emailed the pic and asked me whether i've eaten.... like that lo... the sound on the phone not that clear... so yea we hung up like that and he said he will call when he's free... but im chooooooooooooooooo happy !!!!

he totally made my day lol (its night liaw la.. chaboh)..... happy happy happy:)

oh yeah... btw his name is kalvin and he's indonesian chinese from pontianak.. he speaks mandarin so no problem communicating.. lol i miss him :( not going to post the pic.... later everyone see i paiseh... let u all imagine nia(lol think too much).. i will show when u guys come back... and i've only known him for like 2 days nia... and im like in love liaw... gosh man... love=crazy.... i love and hate this kinda feeling at the same time.. it the been a long time i felt like this.... i thought i dont have feeling anymore... lol

bahbah.... thats all.... lol might sound crappy to u guys and probably wont understand what the hell i was saying.... i will elaborate more when u all came back lol lol lol

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